A New life…

I often read other blogs.  Some are friends, fellow racers or acquaintances about their journeys and experiences.

I often get inspired by these blogs and in return have to share my thoughts. One blog I have been recently following “The Journey we call life” by a fellow cyclist in my area.  She is so passionate and open about her life.  Last article she posted really made me think about my past marriage.

How do you know these things when before or during your marriage? Reading articles like this, I wonder if our failures are meant to be or could we of really tried to make things right in our lives.

Hop on the roller coaster .. it going to be a long ride!

How many people refer to the “Roller Coaster ride” after/before their divorce? Well all I can says is its definitely a roller coaster of emotion that is one hell of a ride.

Early in my divorce I pondered “When does a new beginning start?” Up, down, up, down, up, down. Can someone please stop this roller coaster! I think I am going to be sick!

Honestly .. marriage to me was confusing.  I didn’t know what I was doing or what I was suppose to do.

A few months ago.. I was watching the movie called “Parenthood”. The Grandma used this analogy that really made me think….

Grandma: You know, when I was nineteen, Grandpa took me on a roller coaster.
Gil: Oh?
Grandma: Up, down, up, down. Oh, what a ride!
Gil: What a great story.
Grandma: I always wanted to go again. You know, it was just so interesting to me that a ride could make me so frightened, so scared, so sick, so excited, and so thrilled all together! Some didn’t like it. They went on the merry-go-round. That just goes around. Nothing. I like the roller coaster. You get more out of it.

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Think about it…  What do you prefer?

This analogy really put me back on the task at hand and that is healing and becoming the person that is kindhearted, faithful, loving and outright fun.

Growing and learning… it’s time to Take ownership.

It’s been 2 years  now..  I am  more of  a “go with the flow person” now. Making everyday count, adding spice to my life with doing little things that improve my health and my happiness.

By taking ownership of my failures 9 months ago made me put those hurt feelings aside.

Being present for myself and my kids has been one of the best things I have ever done.

I am now a father to my kids. I listen and finally figured out they just needed me to be .. well just “me”. First time in my life I have a open dialogue with my kids. They tell me everything (some things I don’t need to hear), but I look at this as they are sharing their thought with me. I have never had that before.  I am now so thankful and privileged to have such great and open kids.

Thank you my friend…

My ex is amazing person.  I am also happy my kids have a mom that is so supportive & loving to my kids. She is amazing person and I am happy that things turned out for the best in both our worlds.

Life is awesome …

Thanks for reading… I am no writer so please excuse the rambling  😛